Sunday, October 18, 2015

Maybe Re-Release Silas Uncover of "Hurt"

"Hurt" by Silas does not resemble the version in the next article by Pol Arida except each video has some guy playing a guitar and singing.  There is no judgment nor critique implied by doing it but rather the song sets off the thinking and I did an uncover of it some while back.  I've used a lot of drugs and I've caused a lot of pain although it's one person who knew that the most and she's the most forgiving person I know.

In "Amazing Grace," it talks of 'a wretch like me' and I am that wretch, I am not worthy of forgiveness.

Note:  sometimes I wonder about gunners with concealed weapons and what they think in listening to "Amazing Grace" because why should I believe this person is anything more than a blazing hypocrite when he is willing to kill some other wretch should he deem it necessary.


I will make you "Hurt" and I have lived it, I live it now.  I remember what I did and I don't forget.


I know it causes pain that I will not accept help from any one generous soul or even several but it's because it's an undue burden on you.  Right now the state is not fair to me.  I can extend that by being unfair to you by using love and friendship to manipulate you to help but the result of that will be I'm still screwed because my health is screwed anyway.  Moreover, the unfairness of the state to me will also be extended to you plus there's the unfairness from me in asking.

I know it will hurt to watch but my intention isn't to hurt anyone with it, rather the opposite as I intend and have been trying to make the trip as good as I can.  In covering the song, it's in part to talk of the existential pain but it's also to show you I can rise above it to record it.  The latter is easy to miss so that's the trick in the recording because that point must be visible for me to be satisfied it's not whining.

Assuming this happens, it won't take long.  I laid down the foundation tracks way back and I don't have any burning need to do them again.  Maybe add some B3 organ ... or not.  The only thing is to record the vocal again and sing it lower.

We shall see.

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