Friday, August 19, 2016

The Buspar Experiment of the Second Part

Second day with normal dose of 10mg of Buspar / Buspirone after yesterday with 5 mg at 4-5 hour intervals.  Deep suspicion of the stuff remains and I've had benign prescriptions for such things in the past, one from a Rhode Island GP whose estimation in my view is way deep in the toilet whereas previously it was relatively good.  In part that was based on an open-ended prescription for Klonopin for sleep.

If you're not familiar with the nightmare of Klonopin, check out Stevie Nicks and her story is largely the same as mine.  Your guard is up for drugs you know are dangerous life-suckers but not for something like that and maybe the regulars remember a withdrawal that went out for months and was full-tilt crazy.  It wasn't the king hell gonzo kind of crazy as that kind was ostensibly fun in the most twisted possible kind of mind-obliterating way.  Klonopin, however, results in a protracted day-in/day-out nightmare.

If any habituation is required to get accustomed to this Buspar then it is fired because that's the same thing as addiction and Big Pharma owns you.  Psychiatrists are relatively forthcoming regarding the ongoing need for psychotherapeutic drugs but everyone knows going into it they will drug you for life if they can.  Other doctors are not so forthcoming or may not even know.  I suspect my RI doctor didn't even know.  I as never advised of any danger in Klonopin and particularly not about danger from any kind of long-term use of it which I discovered to be as you have read previously.

Therefore I monitor closely and it goes out the window if it so much as annoys a toenail.

Sleep is all the more important as the surgical sites are lit-up like five-alarm fires and there's no way to prevent abrasion with even cotton material so the best move is taking it horizontal and don't move. I sleep and they slowly heal.  It's naturally slow because they cauterized that layer of skin and it needs its little helper parts as with typical road rash abrasions to make more but there isn't any so it's slow and it's fucking hurty (larfs).

I shall now indulge in my favorite medication (virtual) of Phukitol and assume the horizontal position.  It's been about thirty minutes and only a light calming effect is observed so it's judged benign for the moment but don't for a moment think that means I trust it as it so fuckin' doesn't (larfs).

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