Emphysema is incurable. I am not willing to die from it. There is only one other choice.
Fundamental Rule: when there are no good options, pick the one that is the best act of defiance.
Suicide is a logical choice in the face of something much worse. There's nothing to discuss on this as I made up my mind on this a long time ago.
In this context, suicide is art. The state and the church say it is illegal. I say fuck them. It is neither their business nor their right. It is not their decision to make whether I will spend some period at the end of my life in a wheelchair with oxygen tanks. That is not going to fucking happen.
God is not going to burn me for doing this. God does not give a fuck. Let's review: God wiggles his godly finger and this whole incredible Universe explodes out of nothing. After he's done that he kicks back for a minute and thinks, hmmm, now what shall I do. Then it comes to him. I'll take a look at the people on Earth to see if anyone is masturbating.
So God is not going to burn me but the state might. If they were to get wind of it then it's conceivable they would try to stop it or some lunatics would show up in cloaks and start chanting.
There cannot be any assistance from anyone as the result would be that person would be charged as an accessory to murder. Seriously. America is so gutless on this matter that it will stop at nothing to prevent it. America is not the only one as choice is still relatively rare. It's the hypocrisy that frosts me as anyone who has worked in a nursing home can tell you about snuffing old people. Apparently an enema is dangerous to geriatric patients with some conditions. Do it anyway and they're snuffed. It all looks perfectly innocent. This kind of thing happens all the time but the country fails to deal with it except with draconian measures to prevent it.
This is not something immediate and that's why I consider it now so it's rational and there is no hysteria. You know what comes with emphysema and I tell you flat that I won't do it. Breathing is very bad now and it will get worse at some unpredictable rate. Somewhere between now and being in a wheelchair is the exit point. I won't put an estimate on that at this time but it's not immediate.
Where it gets insane as I'm thinking of doing this publicly in The First and Last Annual Crazy Ass Suicide Jam. Attention is lots of fun, sure, but there's more to it than that as it gives me the chance through the best medium I know to show everyone I am at peace with what is happening. It also makes a very strong statement about freedom of choice and I think a very good statement. The "Woman in the Snow" went down with her finger in the air so I owe her that.
The other alternative is to chuck everything right now and I do mean everything except some clothes and go off to the Way of Saint James. I emphasize it is not for religious intent but rather a path of peace. I will write further on that as I must think about it some more. There are huge considerations in doing it as ultimately it only defers the inevitable. I am not willing to end up in a situation in which I need a caretaker. This idea needs more thought.
Fundamental Rule: when there are no good options, pick the one that is the best act of defiance.
Suicide is a logical choice in the face of something much worse. There's nothing to discuss on this as I made up my mind on this a long time ago.
In this context, suicide is art. The state and the church say it is illegal. I say fuck them. It is neither their business nor their right. It is not their decision to make whether I will spend some period at the end of my life in a wheelchair with oxygen tanks. That is not going to fucking happen.
God is not going to burn me for doing this. God does not give a fuck. Let's review: God wiggles his godly finger and this whole incredible Universe explodes out of nothing. After he's done that he kicks back for a minute and thinks, hmmm, now what shall I do. Then it comes to him. I'll take a look at the people on Earth to see if anyone is masturbating.
So God is not going to burn me but the state might. If they were to get wind of it then it's conceivable they would try to stop it or some lunatics would show up in cloaks and start chanting.
There cannot be any assistance from anyone as the result would be that person would be charged as an accessory to murder. Seriously. America is so gutless on this matter that it will stop at nothing to prevent it. America is not the only one as choice is still relatively rare. It's the hypocrisy that frosts me as anyone who has worked in a nursing home can tell you about snuffing old people. Apparently an enema is dangerous to geriatric patients with some conditions. Do it anyway and they're snuffed. It all looks perfectly innocent. This kind of thing happens all the time but the country fails to deal with it except with draconian measures to prevent it.
This is not something immediate and that's why I consider it now so it's rational and there is no hysteria. You know what comes with emphysema and I tell you flat that I won't do it. Breathing is very bad now and it will get worse at some unpredictable rate. Somewhere between now and being in a wheelchair is the exit point. I won't put an estimate on that at this time but it's not immediate.
Where it gets insane as I'm thinking of doing this publicly in The First and Last Annual Crazy Ass Suicide Jam. Attention is lots of fun, sure, but there's more to it than that as it gives me the chance through the best medium I know to show everyone I am at peace with what is happening. It also makes a very strong statement about freedom of choice and I think a very good statement. The "Woman in the Snow" went down with her finger in the air so I owe her that.
The other alternative is to chuck everything right now and I do mean everything except some clothes and go off to the Way of Saint James. I emphasize it is not for religious intent but rather a path of peace. I will write further on that as I must think about it some more. There are huge considerations in doing it as ultimately it only defers the inevitable. I am not willing to end up in a situation in which I need a caretaker. This idea needs more thought.
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